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January 31 oops... - crystalOkay so i was great all day yesterday... and then i gave in. i had a glass (wow i almost wrote bottle which is so not true) of wine. *headdesk* however apparently wine helps with cramps. lol.
Alright so i need to get better again today... stay on track and no wine or non jenny food. i probably could have worked out some yesterday... my pms is being weird. normally i'm out cold in pain for days. this time just extreme pain then it disappears, weird. i was so afraid that i'd start cycling class and then just not be able to move & in extreme pain unable to leave the room. so far today i'm doing better than expected.... so no matter what my butt is going to the gym tomorrow. the goal for the week was 2-4 days. that will give me 3 days. screw the pending ice tomorrow, i'm gonna get my butt there no matter what.
My ultimate reward to myself for hitting my goal weight is a tattoo I've wanted for 4 years... now i keep dreaming about getting tattooed... i think thats a sign. so in order to sleep right again its time to get back on track.
If i screw up today... i'll be back blogging & crying.
(side note... wow this site is becoming a bit more mac friendly) January 30 Ridding My Body of Toxins And Breaking My Treadmill At The Same Time! (Brittany)And sadly, that does mean what you think it means. Haha! I'm feeling much better today. I came home and grabbed my shorts and a tank top, ate some dinner, rested for a bit, and then got on the treadmill. I upped my speed and ran (yes! I actually ran!! I was very surprised at myself) for a little bit. I got to just under 2 miles and the treadmill started making funny noises. Kinda like scratching metal. Yikes!!! So I decided I better get off before I completely broke it and it sent me flying into the wall. Maybe it just needed a nap. I'm gonna have the hubby look at it when he gets home from work tonight. However, I did work my butt off on the treadmill tonight and as a result , I looked like most of the contestants on the Biggest Loser on their first weeks. Yuck! But oh well!! No more toxins in my body!
 Oh...and then, just as I was getting ready to hop off the treadmill because my legs felt like Jello. "Proud" came on. And I would have been a horrible person to not stay on the treadmill a little longer and make it through that song. So I pushed myself and held on just a bit longer. And made myself proud! Hehe! Back on track - CrystalSo i havent commented on my partners entry b/c i dont want to know who got kicked off this week. :) I taped it since i knew I would fall asleep last night before it eneded. I will comment on it once I watch the end. I feel asleep right before the yellow team weighed in.
I figured i'd write a quick update since I didnt get a chance to yesterday. I've been on track all day yesterday and today. Yesterday I had an extra bottle of water, but couldnt make it to the gym because I was in too much pain. Today I'm waiting for the pain to hit... it did this morning but has died off, which is good since I have to be at work all day no excuses today. I've followed my program today and almost ready for a 3rd bottle of water again, my only mistake... i forgot my yogurt this morning since i was in pain and was just trying to get out the door. I'll just have it when i get home tonight instead. Otherwise I'm doing good and not going off. Yesterday I didnt eat any chocolate i was craving, but had a hot chocolate instead of coffee to try and stop the craving... did for the most part.
The goal... hope to work out friday/saturday & sunday... since my head is still going in circles. Damn period setting me back. Oh well... time to think positive right?
January 29 Not A Good Day and Who Got Kicked Off Tonight? (Brittany)I think I have consumed enough water today to get me through the week. I don't know if I'm getting sick or what's going on, but I have drank 8- 32 ounce water bottles. Normally, I have 4, at most. But today, I've just been so thirsty. My mouth is dry, and I just can't stop drinking. And then, I was walking down my steps and I don't know if I stepped too early or missed the top step, but I landed hard on my right ankle. It is killing me. Then, I sit down to watch the Biggest Loser and it keeps getting interrupted by breaking weather news. Since it's storming here. I e-mail my partner to find out what I missed, and in the meantime, I decide to get on the treadmill because it's pretty hard to pay attention to a show when it's being broken into every 5 minutes. Anyway, I go to get on the treadmill and the power flickers. Greaaaatttttt!!!! It flickered off and then came back on. So I go and unplug a few things and get back on the treadmill. The power goes out. And doesn't come back on. And all of my flashlights were up in the bedroom. So I hobble up the steps, opening and closing my cell phone, and grab the flashlights. I lay down on the bed..cursing the fact that I'm missing the Biggest Loser, and finally at 10:05 (WHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) the stupid power comes back on! So I missed who got kicked off the show tonight. Can someone give me a summary? The last thing I saw was Jillian talking about chewing gum. I am not a happy camper right now. Stupid storm making me miss my show!  January 28 in need of a pms adjustment -crystalso i weighed in today.... and ding ding ding we have a winner!! good job pms... how i love thee let me count the ways.... 1.... 2..... 3.... 3.4 pounds! thats how much i love you! fyi, thats pounds gained. what sweet glory.
 son of a....
eh well here's to my pms ending either tomorrow or wednesday and being on track this week. goals for the week:
Now i'm heading to bed for some reading (current book: Song of Soloman by Toni Morrison)... some Gladiators... and some bed. Have a great night everyone! In Need Of An Attitude Adjustment (Brittany) My Internet at home is acting up, so I need to blog while I get the chance at work. I'll do the Million Mile walk check-in later tonight if my Internet cooperates. I just got back from weigh-in, and as usual, I'm ticked off. Why, you may ask? Because I am now 300.6. FREAKING .7 away from being under 300!! WHY, OH WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO NOT COOPERATE WITH ME, BODY?! UGH! I did lose 4 pounds this week, which I'm happy with. And had I not saw 298.4 on the scale at home (in my weigh-in clothes mind you), I wouldn't be as disappointed with not being under 300 as I am. My scale had been 2 pounds higher than my Weight Watchers scale, and now it's a little over 2 pounds lower? **Throws scale into the middle of the road** I even took my dang hair scrunchie out to see if that would get me below 300. Haha! Pathetic isn't it? I just need to think positive and know that next week I will be under 300. Next week, dangit! But anyway, I need to stop being so hard on myself. I did lose 4 pounds. And that's all that matters. No more beating myself up for not being under 300 this week. I'll be under it soon enough. **Breathes and thinks happy thoughts** January 27 blah blah blah... i suck - crystalNever has my pms been this bad. my god. you'd think i was a starving child. oh well. So any gaining I know its not the food b/c the food could have been much worse honestly, its mostly bloat. this is nuts. last nights dinner didn't go as planned, had some not healthy stuff but when its 11pm & you're a hungry beast you'll do with what you can get (without being out much longer when you gotta go to work the next morning). I was so freakin tired this morning that i forgot my breakfast & my yogurt. good job me. that lead to dunkin donuts bagel. blah blah blah. its like it's impossible for me to ever get below 173. this is not helping. However I will be working my ass off at the gym later.
 let's pray no cramps get in the way. why is this so hard?! why cant i be naturally thin! grr you pms grr you.so the goal for the day is to not flip out too bad tomorrow when i weigh in. i wish i had food to last me b/c i just wouldnt even go tomorrow to save my sanity. this week sucked i need to start doing better. and i know once pms is done i'll be fine... but i want nothing that i have to eat at home. i either really need food and theres nothing appetizing around (and well mom is going grocery shopping today while i'm at work, we're running low on options)... or i just cant force it down. UGHHHHHHHHH.
next week will be better. January 26 A thanks, a sorry, and a note - crystalThank you... first of all. Thank you everyone for your support. I really do appreciate it. I'm always an emotional wreck before my period and my eating always suffers and its good to have support. While I say thank you, I also say sorry to my partner. I just want to say i'm sorry...I didnt make it to the gym. cramps suck a big one, so i didnt move (sad part they'll only get worse next week) and I ate 2 pieces of pizza & salad for dinner. salad good...
 not so hot... at least they werent massive pieces. ugh i feel like such a let down it's not even funny. oh well just gotta get back on track right?A note on my personal issues... they're not bad I promise! I just finshed my masters degree in december and at that time 2 jobs of interest randomly came up, one is my dream job and i was sought out for it, the other a state job (my 2nd choice dream job) i randomly applied to for S***ts & giggles. Well the 1st one is non-profit and I would have had it if the funding wasn't pulled, however even with pulled funding she's trying to get me into the center. There's a chance of that job being less pay than the job i'm at now, and i dont make enough really to survive on that one. I moved back in with my parents this past september to avoid any more debt. Eatting healthy really drains the wallet, it truly does no wonder so many people are obese. The second job, just to start is 12 grand a year more, with a raise in 6 months, then another raise in a year. yeah.... thats hard to not look at. I found out yesterday that I have a second interview for the second job... so i was happy & scared at the same time. All with reason. Here's the catch... as i've stated before I'm POOOORRRRR. My current job paid for my masters and will then give me $10,000 in stock option once my transcripts come through, after taxes its about 6000. I need a new car. So I have all these thoughts of the 2 jobs i'm dying to have being available... but i'd be giving up a free 6 grand. However my job drives me nuts and i've been here 6 years. Insert nervous eatting habits and me stressing myself out for no reason. So yeah nothing bad... all good, just me stressed.
Again thanks for everyone's support it truly means alot to know I'm human and my partner wont disown me b/c my period sucks!
Hope everyone has a good day! (i'll be sitting at work trying to get red sox tickets & waiting impatiently to see rent tonight with my boyfriend)  January 25 ughhhhhhhh - crystalI'm having a bad day. Well who doesnt have one when their hormones and emotions are all screwed up to no end. I know a lot of it has to do with personal stuff. Stuff I refuse to write about in worries of jinxing anything good that may happen. Blah. Wow I hate my period... feminist or no this thing sucks a big one.
Not only am I emotionally screwed, thanks hormones really i appreciate it, but i gave in and had the stupid breakfast sandwhich. So now i feel like crap. Granted all cravings are done... but still i feel like i've gained a pound in an hour. ughness. I promise to get to the gym before cycling and kick my own ass before the cycling instructor does. I'm frustrated but not. Its times like these i just wish it was easier... why cant i just lose it quicker... why cant i be naturally skinny? why do i have to work on my body so hard just to make sure I'm healthy & almost out of the "overweight" zone with my bmi? I wont give up... scary thought i actually enjoy the gym now... and i really want to beat 173 and the 170s. But at the same time the only thing my body wants to do is sleep.
This sucks. Can next week be over already?  January 24 rambling and my experinece w/my dream outfit - crystalyeah so i've been good... but pms is winning. my body feels 10x heavier than it really is. that definitely made my training session absolute hell. i just felt like my body was well over my starting weight. I've been okay with eatting though... however i did have a turkey & cheese w/mucho veggies for dinner. Could have been worse right? I'd have to say this is the best i've ever been with pms, I havent really gone off track, that was the only thing. I may or maynot have that damn haunting breakfast sandwhich. You know how nothing tastes write until you have what you're craving? thats what i'm like right now. stupid pms from hell. i hate you pms i hate you!
anyways... so yesterday for absolute haha's i decided to try on my "dream outfit"... lets just say... IT WS SO NOT PRETTY!!! The top once i figured it out looked almost decent... but good lord almighty the bottoms.... the bottoms. it was fat rolling out of every little place imaginable. So not cool! I'm not sure if even at my goal weight that thing will look good. Wow it was bad... really really bad. We can always dream right? lol At least i did get a smashingly amazing nautica tankini.
I also got a size 10 top by French Connection... fyi I shop on coupons people, i'm poor!!... i got the shirt for $23 and it was originally 118. hells yeah! plus it was a size 10, how great is that!?well i feel a little bad for the turkey & cheese sandwhich... but i could have been worse right? no grease no sweet no bad donut... just fresh turkey & veggies.
i'm for the night again, i promise to start writing better soon. I feel like i've been a slacker. But I have been great at the gym. On Wednesday I did 30 mins on the Eliptical on intervals then an hour psycho cycling class... she truly kicks your as over and over again. Today I had my training session, and tomorrow another cycling class. I'll be sure to get there to really work on my core before the class.
Really more credit to the biggest loser women... I just... maybe my period kills me more than them. i dont know... i just dont get how they do it. does anyone else have similar experiences or ways to deal with periods from hell?? January 23 Today...it hit me! (Brittany)I have my friends and family tell me all the time that my weight loss is amazing and that I inspire them. And for some reason, I shrug it off. When my Weight Watchers leader says it, I shrug it off. I frequently post on LiveJournal in the Weight Watchers communities on there. I often give support and advice, but very rarely do I tell people what I've lost. I don't think I've lost an incredible amount compared to others who have lost 100+ pounds. And yes, 56.6 is a ton of weight to lose. But I don't think it's that great. Today, I made a comment on another member's post. And her response to me was below. I blocked out her name and the rest of her comment. But something she said hit me.
Why is it that when this person tells me that I inspire them, it actually sinks in. It sinks in that I lost 56 pounds. And while to me, 56 pounds may not seem that amazing. To other people it is very amazing. **Shrugging shoulders** I don't know. I've just never been the type to brag about things. I'm very quiet and shy. I hate having the spotlight on me. But to have some random person acknowledge my weight loss and tell me that I inspire them just really sunk in. Especially when I don't go on the community after each weigh in and post my loss. I posted once when I earned my {first of many} 10% key chain. And commented on a post the other day which was a poll on how much you've lost since joining Weight Watchers. Maybe I'm just weird.
I have been so bad about getting exercise in this week. I just have no energy. I've been getting plenty of sleep, so it can't be that. I hope I'm not coming down with something. I'm just entirely too tired for my own good. I come home from work and want to sleep. I guess it could be the cold weather too. I did, however, make some major decisions. Here they are:
1.) I am going to do a 10k with my Weight Watchers leader next May {2009}.
2.) I still plan on doing a 5k in September
3.) Next February {2009}, there is a 45 story climb in the Carew Tower here in Cincinnati. I will be doing that. (And hopefully convincing some people to join me in it)
4.) In 2009, I also plan on doing the Breast Cancer 3-Day. Even before I started changing my lifestyle, I've wanted to do the 3-Day. I don't know anyone with breast cancer, but just to be able to say that I walked 60 miles over the course of 3-Days for an amazing cause would make me incredibly happy.
And those are my major decisions. Hopefully I can convince people to do them with me. I just think they would be more fun to do with friends and family. That is all for today! January 22 Almost perfect... (crystal)I made it through the day... and dont worry all people & breakfast sandwhiches are safe, i didn't give in. I ate all on program... went to the gym... but yeah went off when i got home.
 Well it could be worse right? The one thing I ate off on was that I had a small dinner roll with my dinner... thats the only extra thing I had to eat. But really did i need it? no. And the pain in the ass of it, it so didnt taste as good as it smelled. But hey if thats the most damage I do all week, then okay. No more going off program.While thats the bad side, the good side is that I did get to the gym. I was only planning on doing a small warm up before taking the pilates class, but ended up going full force on the bike for 20 minutes until the class started. It was great to take pilates again, I truly missed it. How do I improve for tomorrow?
So with that I hope everyone has a good night & I'm off to go watch The Biggest Loser. January 21 Disappointed team member #2 (Crystal)First I've always found it entertaining that even before this we had the same weigh in day... always made me chuckle a bit. eh guess i'm easily amused.
But to my point... I'm Disappointed member #2. We are so having week two type weigh ins on the Biggest Loser. What the heck man! 0.8! 0.8! what my body couldnt let go of 0.2 just so i could have a good pound?? Noooo.... had to be a pain in the ass. It amazes me it truly does. While I was hoping for a full pound and not pushing my luck above that... I just... what!? I've eatten pure crap for a week, worked out the same amount and lost more than that. the only things off i had was the one damn roll at dinner on saturday, and the mini donut sample at stew leonards that was smaller than a dunkin donuts munchkin! Hi frustration! I'm you're friend Crystal, nice to meet you. So okay... a loss is a loss and i should shut the hell up. But come on now!! Okay okay... I'm on track so what? Okay sucking it up now and dealing... I lost at least i didnt gain again.
Now hear comes the kicker... aka the point where male readers may just not want to hear a darn thing til my next paragraph, please feel free to jump ahead... I get my period next week. My PMS cravings are driving me mmmmaaaaddd! I know I'm lucky to a point, so let me explain. My period sucks badly, its horrible, i spend a good day to two days unable to move... to the point where last time i was too afraid to call out and spend a very long time crying just trying to get to the shower to then have my mom talk sense into me. Not only am i in extreme pain, but i just want to eat like crazy. This has got to add to the reason I became the size I did and could never lose weight. Once I heard about Seasonale, I asked my doctor and have been on it since. So now instead of eatting & unable to move for two weeks every month... It occurs only once every three. A note, it has helped me lose weight since its not so constant. So because of this.....
I AM DYING FOR A BREAKFAST SANDWHICH. I want a freakin bagel sandwhich more than can be imagined at this moment.... normally I'm all about the cheeseburger, and since i only eat one once every three months i'll allow it... but a bagel sandwhich! Good lord! I could harm someone right now for one... I'm not even kidding. But I am going to try my very very hardest to not give in to this craving (mind you this is now week 2 of this craving). oooo the greasy yummy goodness that could be... but it cant be. Because I cant gain again.
Why cant i gain again? Well let me tell you... I've been haunted by this damn point for months now. I cant get below 173.... hence my trainer making me put 169 everywhere and me thinking 169. well blah. I just cant gain again... I gotta get past this... plus my goal was 170 by the first monday in february... that gives me 1.5 lbs next week and then the week after just to hit 170 point something the week after. This is going to be so hard with my period. Honestly I've always wanted to know, do the women contestants not have any period issues? How do they always work out and lose weight? I dont get it, I can barely move, how do they continue to do it without effects on the scale? truly I'm dumbfounded.
So the goals for the week:
Oh well... so yeah my gym goals for the week:
Well... let's see how this week goes. Disappointed (Brittany)I just got back from my weigh-in, and I can't help but be a little disappointed. I only lost 1.6. And I know..a loss is a loss. A pound is a pound. But I just can't help being disappointed. I'm used to 2+ pound losses. And I guess I've been spoiled on the 2+ pound losses. I feel like the contestants did a few weeks ago when they had small losses. It's just upsetting. I've been longing to be under 300 for so long. And I'm so close. And then I get a small loss. Maybe I'll be able to lose 5 pounds this week. And that will put me under 300.
So anyway, aside from that. Here are my goals for the week:
-2+ miles a day on the treadmill
-400 crunch challenge
-Get in ALL of my good health guidelines for Weight Watchers each day
-Cardio kickboxing three days this week
-Weight training three days January 20 My OTHER Goal Outfit and The World's Greatest Invention (Brittany)I have a second goal outfit. As you all know by now, I love the musical Rent. In 2005, I was browsing E-Bay and found several pieces from costumes worn in Rent. In the actual musical on stage. So the hubby and I tried bidding on (and this will make no sense to you unless you are familiar with Rent) Mark's scarf, Roger's plaid pants, Mimi's Light My Candle costume, and Maureen's Take Me Or Leave Me costume. And we were outbid. On every single one of them. So I thought. Well, alright! I'll get over it. I don't really need a costume from Rent, as much as I might like one. But, unbeknownst to me, the hubby had e-mail the seller of those other pieces to find out if she had anything else that she was planning on listing. And lo and behold, she did! So, she put Mark's Mom's La Vie Boheme costume up as a Buy It Now for Chris to buy. And a few days later, it came in the mail. Now, the pants are probably a size two and may never fit because I have wide hips. But, how cool would it be if the shirt fit? I mean, I would be wearing a piece of a costume worn in my favorite musical. So, if you take a peek in our photo album (and down below too!), you'll see a black "Pocket Tease" shirt and a pair of brown leather pants. And those are my second goal outfit. I won't be heartbroken if I never am able to fit into the costume, but just getting close to fitting into would be a huge accomplishment for me!
A few months ago, my hubby and I went to the local grocery store. As we were browsing, I saw a microwaveable omelet pan. It was $2.00, and that was probably the best $2.00 I've ever spent. This thing is amazing! Each night before I go to bed, I crack open two eggs, dump a few tablespoons of salsa, and a packet of the single serve Weight Watchers cheese in the omelet pan, and mix them together. When I get up, I pop the pan into the microwave, and VOILA! A perfect omelet! This morning, I used a few tablespoons of liquid egg whites instead of whole eggs. And here was the result:
It was so good!! It may not look too pretty. But it is low in calories, and it sure tastes good! The omelet pan is made by Nordicware.
Challenge night... eatting out - CrystalAll week long i've known that I'd be eatting out on Saturday. I've been very good with keeping on track and was a bit worried, but I prepared myself. Before going out I made sure to see if they had a menu online, and luckily they did. I was able to look at the menu and decide with no pressure before going down what would be the smartest decision for me. I settled between a salad or a veggie wrap, but once i got there I was so hungry I was ready to harm for food (this is only my own fault for forgetting a side salad for my lunch). As much as I wanted that huge burger or greasiness I settled on the veggie wrap with a side salad (dressing on the side). The only thing i guess that wasn't the best was the small roll before that arrived... however i was so hungry it was causing me to get sick & headache-y. I didn't get desert & I didn't get that glorious looking candy at the show. Okay... i had one, literally one mini snocap from my friend.
However, that one snocap was then worked off when we took the stairs up to my car. (we also walked down when we got there) Now it's ice cold last night making your chest feel absolutely horrible... so what did we manage to do? we went up an extra large flight of stairs, walked back down, then walked up a ramp to my car. I maintain those stairs were a great workout for the day. They hurt... and were quite large.
 Today is my last day to work out before weigh in... so i'm determined to have a great workout no matter how exhausted I truly am. Hopefully I'll get as much done as I want to!
I'm still sticking to my positive thinking.... 169.... 169. (okay thats a dream to lose 5 pounds in a week... but if it gets me closer to that number, it gets me thinking... 169)
Have a great day everyone!
 January 19 Rants and Raves (Brittany)Hmm. I think I'll start with the rants first.
First of all, I am so tired of places not providing nutritional information for their foods. Give me a break! The hubby and I received a gift card to T.G.I. Friday's for Christmas. I'm off work on Monday and was thinking about getting dinner from there, so I can use the gift card up. So I go to their website. No nutritional information. I search for it online and can't find anything. It's complete B.S. And upon doing a little bit more looking, I see that they use the typical cop-out excuse. Every one of our restaurants is owned by someone different. Therefore, the ingredients and portion sizes vary from location to location, so we are unable to provide nutritional information. But please check our low-fat options. I am so tired of reading this excuse on restaurant's websites. How hard is it to have a standard for what should be in your food and how much of the ingreidents should be in your food? Apparently, it's pretty difficult. I, for one, refuse, from this moment on, to go to any restaurant that does not provide nutritional information to its customer's and that use the typical cop-out excuse. I'm just so sick of it! We pay to eat at your franchise, at least have the courtesy to give us nutritional information for your foods. I have to travel (for the first time) for my work in March. Granted, it is only about two hours away, but it is still travelling for work. Anyway, I wanted to eat at places up there, that are not down here. So I do a little bit of research online and find that COSI, California Pizza Kitchen, and Friendlys are all up there. So I start looking up nutritional information. COSI is fantastic and has nutritional information for EVERYTHING! I may end up eating there a few times. California Pizza Kitchen has very limited nutritional information. They do have nutritional info. for some things, but of course, it's nothing that I would be wanting to order. Friendlys is a whole different story. Growing up, I used to eat a Friendlys once a week. My parents would take me there and we'd get an ice cream from the walk-up window. Then, all the Friendly's around here shut down. The ONLY thing I wanted to order from Friendlys was a Reese Cup Sundae. Yes, I know. **Smacks hand** However, I would use whatever points it took to eat one of those because I haven't had one in so long. Friendly's had no nutritional information on their website at all. So I was going to break it down, ingredient by ingredient, and estimate my points for it. Then, I googled it, and somehow someone was able to get nutritional information for it. 23 points. Yep. That's probably about right. Because I was thinking 25. So, do I plan on using 23 points to eat an ice cream sundae? Dang right I do! To me, that is worth it. If there were a Friendly's around here that I could go to whenever I wanted to, it wouldn't be worth it. And I wouldn't do it. But because I haven't been there since 1996. I'll eat light the whole day, just to get the sundae.
I was sitting here the other day, going through some boxes of stuff that was in our basement. Upon going through the boxes, I found tons and tons of Happy Meal/Kid's Meal toys. It got me thinking. What in the heck is wrong with America?! I know, when I was growing up, I would sit in front of the television and play with my toys. A commerical would come on for McDonald's advertising their Girl/Boy Happy Meals with Barbies and Hot Wheels. "Mommy! Mommy! I want a Happy Meal!" So once a week, sometimes more often, my mom would bring me a Happy Meal so that I could collect every single Barbie. And several times, we would go to McDonald's before they changed toys for the week, which resulted in me having 3 or 4 of the same Barbie. Which in turn meant that in order for me to collect all the Barbies, we would have to keep going back for more Happy Meals. And I wonder why I have a weight problem. And America wonders why there are so many overweight children. We, basically, reward kids for eating crap. Here, have a cheeseburger and some french fries and a soda. And oh! Just for eating that, you get a toy too! And granted, even if restaurants did away with the toys in their kiddie meals, there would still be kids eating the meals. But don't you think that if restaurants stopped putting toys in their kiddie meals, which in turn would eliminate their advertising campaigns selling the kiddie meals that include toys based on movies, etc, there would be a lot less kids with weight problems? And I do know that there would still be kids with weight problems. However, I do think that by eliminating toys in kiddie meals, at least a few less children would have weight problems. Along the same lines, look at all the products at the grocery store that are based on cartoons and children's toys. Like Flintstones cereal and Spongebob Fruit snacks. Don't you think that if companies would stop putting cartoon characters on packaging for un-healthy foods, kids wouldn't ask for them in the grocery store? And that, in turn would result in at least a few less kids with weight problems. Of course, it may put several companies out of business. But what is more important, the lives of our children or the companies trying to make a profit at our children's expense? I do have to give some props to Disney. I noticed that they have started packaging some healthy options (like apples) with their character's faces. If only other companies would follow in suit.
I need someone to come and take my scale away from me. I find myself stepping on it every single time I go upstairs to use the restroom. And then, if I am up a pound or two from my weigh-in the previous Monday, I start getting upset. I'm relying too much on the numbers. Currently, the scale is saying 307. Last Monday, it was 306. So in my head, I'm coming up with reasons on why I can't go in to Weight Watchers on Monday morning. I'll still go. Of course. I went after Thanksgiving when I was up 4 pounds. I went after Christmas when I was up 2 pounds. But, I'm psyching myself out. And looking at the numbers on the scale. And getting paranoid. If I'm up, I'm up. I know that I've followed the plan this week. I didn't go over my points. In fact, several days I had to force myself to eat all my points. So really, the only thing that could cause me to be up is bloating. Which I'm definitely feeling right now.
Now, on to trigger foods. I cannot eat mozzarella sticks. Or potatoe skins. Because once I get started, I can't stop. Most people are that way with chocolate or ice cream. To me, it's more of the appetizer type foods. I made the banner at the top of the page to be creative. Actually, most of the things on it, I was craving at the time. But I improvised. I made my own version of the nachoes. I took two servings of Baked Tostitos. Two tablespoons of salsa. Two servings of Weight Watchers Mexican cheese. And two tablespoons of sour cream. I heated the cheese and chips in the microwave. Threw salsa and a few jalapenos on top of them. And there's my dinner! In fact, I ended up drinking 2- 1 liter bottles of water because the salsa was hot salsa and because of the jalapenos. And previously, I would have kept eating those nachoes. I would have probably had 4 or 5 servings of them. But, I'm starting to develop self-control. On New Year's Eve, the hubby and I got Chili's for dinner. I saved my points for the say and got a Guiltless Black Bean Burger and an order of the Texas Cheese Fries. And granted, the cheese fries are really, really bad for me. I saved my points and ate them. For several meals. A few months ago, I would have eaten them. For one meal. And then had the burger and a dessert. I ate the burger, a few cheese fries, and was stuffed. And, to tell the truth, the cheese fries weren't that good. And looking back, they weren't worth the points I used on them. Maybe sometime soon, I'll try my hand at eating some cheese sticks. And seeing if I can stop myself. But for now, I'm not risking it. I love cheese sticks, but I really don't care to have the 55 pounds I lost come back. No way!
And on another note, I got on the treadmill last night. I'm not good on my feet. I can walk just fine. But when it comes to using the treadmill, I'm not too steady on it. So I usually do a mile or two at 1 M.P.H. Which is so bad. I know. But I'm trying to work my way up. And I'm trying to wean myself off of using the handles for support. So last night, I hopped on the treadmill. "La Vie Boheme" from Rent popped on, and I went from 1 M.P.H. to 2.6. And I did run for a few seconds without touching the handles. And then I almost flew off, so I grabbed the handles again. Baby steps, I suppose. One of these days, I will be able to run without using the handles for more than a few seconds at a faster pace. But for now, I am proud of myself for moving the speed up like I did. And for running without using the handles. Even if it was only for a few seconds.
I think that's all that I have to rant and rave about right now. I'm currently working on my menu for next week because we literally have no food in the fridge or freezer. So we need to head to the store tomorrow to buy some groceries. Right now, I'm thinking, several kinds of stuffed peppers. Some kind of wraps. Some steamed salmon. And I have been craving hummus like no other! So definitely some hummus! And I'd really like to do some kind of peanut butter dessert and some kind of caramel brownie thing.
Holy... my shirt's not tight! - CrystalThis morning was a rough morning. My kitty's a little hell raiser and she tends to keep people up at night, so I awoke about a half hour early to my mother yelling at her. I then opened my door to let said hell raiser in. The furball got petted then continued to want attention, until she rested on her little kitty ledge to stalk birds outside. I love my kitty, but love my sleep more
 . (turns out kitty was quite the eater last night so had no food left, which is why she was a nutcase this morning)So I started my morning at 5 something this am and not 6:10... not fun. Who wants to 1. work on the weekend, 2. wake up early for it? Oh well, thats my job. Though there was an upside to 6 this morning when I was getting dressed. I'm dressed up a bit more than I normally would for a weekend shift since I'm heading to a concert shortly after work. My outfit: jeans, a pretty dkny sweater w/a tank underneath. My jeans went on fine... well sweet!... then when i put the tank top on, it actually felt kind of big.. it wasn't extremely fitted to my body (especially my tummy). Well hell! I'll take a morning like that!
Thats a way to start a day, especially knowing I wont be able to make it to the gym today (only some ab work if i dont get home at midnight since i have to work tomorrow am also). I'll take it!My trainer suggested something to me... let's make this mental as well. Just keep thinking low numbers along with following my diet to see what happens on monday. I'm to put stickies everywhere that say "169". I haven't done the sticky part yet... but I have been thinking it. Who knows... i'll take anything right now.
 Has anyone also added in positive thinking to help them out? January 18 "Hey let's go to stew leonard's it looks like fun" - CrystalOh yes... I survived. How does someone trying desperately to lose weight & stay on track end up at Stew Leonard's? Well after a trip to Target on the way home, my boyfriend states "Hey let's go to Stew Leonard's it looks like fun"... so I pull in. Now this is CT's only (if i'm correct, there may be one somewhere else but not in my area) and neither of us had ever been in, so what the hell let's go! Dumbass i am... well no i'm actually proud of myself. I did give into the free wine tasting... luckily they only give you a little bit so i'm not that worried. Then we actually entered the store, while he went nuts on samples I tried my damnedest not to sample. I did good, only a small piece of the donut & the meatball. Go me!! I was actually really hungry, so darnit i did good. I didn't buy anything bad, only cherries. I really wanted the
. Really bad. I'm pmsing & was extremely hungry so i think i deserve a star for being that good.  I've done good this week. I'm shocked i'm doing so well, really I am. I did eat out today, but I got a salad when we went out, it was the "Garden Grilled Vegetable Salad". It was grilled eggplant, grilled zuchanni, and grilled peppers, and since i desperately need protein right now I added chicken. SO GOOOD!!! Absolutely amazing. Plus i did over 7 miles at the gym today. YAY! I really so badly want to go and eat some bad food, i'm not even kidding how bad I want it... pizza, stuffed bread, cheeseburger, fries, bagel breakfast sandwhich, pasta...... excuse me i need to wipe some drool. oooo junk food.
okay no more bad thoughts. I'm going out again for dinner tomorrow so I'm going to be good again.
I'd like to thank Brittany... really she's the one who asked to do this, even though at the same time I thought about it before she asked... and now I'm being very careful and trying to curve my pms cravings (i know i'll give into one soon but not yet). Really she's helping me get back on track. Now it's just up to me to keep it up.
Here's to not screwing up tomorrow night... A Revelation And A Few Recipes (Brittany) I had every intention of coming home and using my treadmill. I came home to discover that my darling (not so darling in this case) husband loaded my stove top full of dishes. On top of that, he loaded up both sides of the sink, and there were a few dishes on the counter. Now how, I just don't know. I left for work at 11:30am and there were maybe four dishes floating around. He left at noon. 30 minutes after I left and 50 million dishes later (OK...so I exaggerated. There weren't 50 million dishes, but it sure seemed like it!), he apparently decided to go to work too! And I am the kind of person who cannot focus on ANYTHING else when there are dirty dishes. They sit there on the counter and taunt me. (Trust me, I do have a point to this rambling, so just bear with me!) So instead of getting on the treadmill, I came home and did dishes. We don't have a dishwasher, so I had to do all 50 million of them by hand. On top the stove, there were 5 glass plates. I grabbed the first two and threw them in the sink to soak and went to grab the next three. I glanced down at the top plate, and seriously, the sight made me sick. Darling husband decided to eat some fish fillets with tartar sauce before work. From the time he put the dish on the stove (probably around noon, right before he left), and the time I got home from work at 4:30, the tartar sauce had turned all icky and gross. Not trying to make anyone sick, I do have a point! I promise! But it had gone from its nice white, creamy color to a gross yellowish-greenish-clear color. Eww! I stood there for a minute and just thought. I thought to myself...I used to eat that tartar sauce. I used to dip everything in that tartar sauce. If that is what the tartar sauce looks like after sitting out for a few hours, think of what is is doing to your body! Ouch! The very thought of it just completely disgusted me. Now, I eat pretty healthy, if I do say so myself. I try to limit the processed foods that I eat. But something inside of me just clicked. I used to put that in my body by the cup-full. I don't even know what's in the stuff! And yet, I would put it into my body. And then, I decided that I'd have enough. From now on, everything I eat is going to be free of the processed junk. From now on, I'm going to carefully examine labels. And if I can't pronounce something in it, I'm not buying it! Instead of buying salsa with 10 unpronounceable ingredients in it, I'm going to make it myself. I've just had it. I'm sick and tired of putting foods into my body that have an ingredient list a mile long with the majority of the ingredients being things I've never even heard of. And it's pretty bad that with all the health and fitness books that I read, it took a pile of tartar sauce to make me come to this revelation. But, at least I came to this revelation!On a side note, I have a few recipes to share. I'll try to take pictures of them the next time I make them. The first is Salsa Chicken: 1 can of Chicken 1 jar of salsa 1 packet of taco seasoning (in whatever heat level you prefer) 1 can of black beans 1 can of corn Peppers to your liking I throw it all in a pan, stir it up, and throw it in the fridge. When I get hungry, I grab two Flat Out Wraps. I throw 1/3 cup of Weight Watchers Mexican shredded cheese blend on them (divided among the two of them). And then, I throw a few spoonfuls of the Salsa Chicken mixture on them. Throw them in the microwave for 1 minute, and voila! Simple to make. Very tasty! And healthy too! Once they're warm, I add a tablespoon of sour cream to each tortilla and roll them. The second recipe is a sauce for salmon. It's a Cherry sauce: 1 bag of frozen cherries A teaspoon of chili powder A teaspoon of minced onion Thaw the cherries over night. Throw all the ingredients in the blender and blend until smooth. It makes a ton of sauce! I throw a piece of salmon in a Zip 'N Steam bag and steam it with a little bit of veggies. Once the salmon is done, I throw it on a plate and throw two tablespoons of the sauce over the top of it. It's very healthy and very yummy! |
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