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February 26 and we try again... - crystalWell today was day one in trying my darnest to try to get over this stupid hurdle.... its so frustrating... ugh. so mad & frustrated with myself. But that anger needs to turn into results. I figured that now that i know what time I'm leaving for Jersey I'll be able to work out 6 days. But first things first... how did i handle today's challenge? Well I did good. :) I ate on program and when I went out to dinner I stuck to my plan. At dinner i did have a piece of bread, but i didnt get soda or wine, I had water... to eat I had a Grilled Shrimp Ceaser, dressing on the side & I didnt use a lot. I also got to do Pilates & some cardio beforehand. NOw I just need to follow that plan tomorrow. Tomorrow's plan is: stick to my eatting program, get some eliptical or stairmill in before hour Spinning class. I'm sorry for the quick update (i'm also watching Biggest Loser now), but I feel that if i keep writing everything down this week maybe it'll help a little.
hope everyone has a great night! okay i also need to admit though all but one of the tattoos were really corny I'm so jealous...thats my reward when i hit my goal weight... the one i've wanted I've wanted for 4 years... its time to get that damnit. February 25 It Sure Has Been A Heck Of A Month (Brittany)I haven't been around much at all lately. Lots of things have been going on. I'm sure you've heard the saying "When it rains, it pours." Pretty much sums it up. This is technically weight loss related, so bear with me. An online friend of mine gave birth at the beginning of January. She wasn't due until April. Her son was in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. About a week ago, he passed away. While I've never met the girl, it did hit home for me. It made me think of all the things that I take for granted. For so long I've been so unhealthy and have just basically been pushing it as much as I can. Eating whatever I want. Not really caring about the consequences. And here you have this tiny baby that was born into the world early, struggling with evry breath. I don't know. It just really hits me hard. We all are being given second chances at life right now. And I know that no one can be perfect all the time. But I know that I personally need to stop taking things for granted. I need to give this my all as often as I can. No more taking things for granted. I was given a second chance at life. I was given a chance to change my life for the better. To be fit. To be healthy. And I just can't keep taking things for granted, especially knowing that there was a little guy out there that was barely given a chance to live. It really just makes me think.
A little bit of background on this story now: My husband and I were married in 2004. We went to get a loan for a house in 2003. My credit score was fine, but his was horrendous. We looked over the credit report and he had no idea what the $50,000+ charges were on his credit report. I'm not going to point fingers right now, because that's not the point of this blog. But we think it could have been a family member. I spent from 2003 to around August 2006, disputing charges, sending letters, making phone calls. Nice, huh? Finally in November of 2006, we were able to buy a house. I had managed to get everything but one charge of around $200 taken off of his credit report without pointing fingers and causing a divide in the family. We had put fraud alerts on his credit report and my credit report just in case anything else happened. We checked the credit reports in August, and everything was a-okay. The only charge still on his was the one mentioned above, and mine was fine as well. So today, I come home and find a letter in our mail box addressed to him. From a collection agency. Great. Just great. So I open it. It's a collection agency trying to collect for T-Mobile. Umm, no? Chris has never had a cell phone number outside of his Verizon number. And on top of that, with the fraud alerts on the account, no one should have been able to GET a phone with his social security number. So now I get to do some investigating to see if anyone in the family has or had a T-Mobile Account. And then he is going to call T-Mobile to see if he can get the number of the account and find out where the bills were sent. My point of this is that I am stressed out. Pulling hairs out of my head stressed out. But I didn't turn to food. I have ice cream in the fridge (Weight Watchers ice cream, of course). But I didn't once go to reach for it. **Pats herself on the back** If this had been the old Brittany, she would have consumed two pints of Ben and Jerry's by now.
I was bad this weekend. My stomach was hurting and I had the bloat from hell. So to try to help that, I went over my points and ate some bean burritos, some asparagus, and some LiveActive cheese. I know, that sounds like a great combo, but it did work. However, the fact that I went over my points did show. I lost 0.4 on the scale today. And it was a well deserved 0.4. In fact, I probably deserved a gain. So thank you body for at least dropping 0.4 this week. I appreciate it! Since it has been a heck of a month.
My doctor is running tests on my thyroid and checking my glucose levels and such. I want to see if my thyroid has decided to go normal on its own without the medication and if I'm still pre-diabetic. So please keep your fingers crossed for me. I could really use some good news!
I will be updating the Mileage ticker tomorrow, so if you haven't sent us your mileage, send it to me now! I'll also go around tomorrow night and post on your guestbooks asking for any mileage that you haven't already given us. no longer in a fight with the scale, its now war! - crystaloh yeah we're in war. me & the scale are no longer fighting, its now a war. what in the hell? I expected it... but still... i gained a pound! i'm so pissed off i dont know what to do. I however did not eat the bag of marveoulous emergency mini eggs that are downstairs. What do i do? Really? Please inform me so i know. I get my week together and 99% of the time, but I again always give myself room for that 1% because we cannot all be perfect.
so now what? another week... another week of obstacles. And this weeks obstacles? Tomorrow night we're going out to dinner for a very good family friend's birthday. So the plan, try my damnedest to get a salad of some sort. The same plan goes with Friday night. Friday I head down to Jersey for one of my good friend's birthdays. Which of course means dinner & bar. The goal is not to drink, even though i gotta pay $20 for the damn vip section (freakin hell) which equals 2 drinks. I dont have alot of cash... so hopefully I can eat healthy that night & the morning. Detailed plan time... and hopefully it works this time: Tuesday: Pilates... be good when eatting out Wednesday: Spinning... no going off track Thursday: Training session... no going off track Friday: Working a half day, if possible (I'm not sure what time we're leaving) get to the gym before heading to Jersey. Be very careful while eatting, and try my hardest not to give into drinks. Saturday: Eat as healthy as possible in the morning, head to the Gym when i get back (this also depends on weather apparently more snow is coming... side note a little over 2 weeks til i head to Florida) Sunday: more body pump.. eat right. if this doesnt help i will scream next week ugh... - crystalblah. that is how i feel... blah.
i'm sure that i did not lose a damn thing this week. Friday I didnt go to the gym... due to the lovely snow & ice storm we were having I decided that getting home safe was priority #1, not getting to the gym then driving more in the storm after the gym. I only do storm driving to work and back, thats it... my poor car doesnt need to suffer & neither do i. I did however start feeling odd again, that lovely time when i need some red meat in my diet, that i never realize but my mom does. I think its just normal i need real fresh protein chicken, not frozen stuff... but i really the stuff in red meat. fun right? well I hoped Saturday would be a little better... eh it went. I didnt get to work out b/c we were going to NYC, i did pretty well, i didnt eat much... but it still wasn't the healthiest food possible. OH well. I think i'm getting a cold still... i'm craving soup & juice... stuff that isnt from a freezer. that and i'm extremely moody. something is not right with my body & it's letting itself be known.
Yesterday was a small improvement though... minus the bagel & cinnamon twist. I did stay on track after that... and I tried Body Pump at the gym. I understand why its very effective, I'm so glad that the pilates instructor was there & helped me set up and get what i needed. What i didnt know was that she was team teaching the class. I liked it, but not that great... I'd rather spin. I'm going to keep up with it just to see if it will just help me in the long run. I hurt pretty bad, add that onto the hurt of getting a cold & i'm in great shape right now.
I'm still sure that i didnt lose anything. I know some of it is my fault... but at the same time, why cant i be normal? why is it that what i eat always has a consequence. why cant i not worry for a day? ugh i hate that feeling, but thats where i am right now. I shall let everyone know tonight how i actually did. ugh. February 22 me & the scale are in a fight! - crystalFirst an explanation of the spinning jumps. Well you basically go up a mock hill adding resistance, etc... so when you do jumps you're normally at a higher resistance, and you "jump" up and down from sitting position to a standing postion for either 2 to 8 counts. You're alternating and let me tell you you're butt & legs kill after that.
Anyways... me & the scale are in a huge fight.
 The scale is just not being friendly. As of last night I haven't lost a damn thing since Monday. What the hell man! I've eatten on program, then on Tuesday night had a training session, Wednesday did 20 mins of elepitcal and then an hour spinning/cycling class. I dont get it at all... I truly dont. My trainer is thinking that something needs to change to jump start my metabolism. So tonight (if i make it there thanks to the snow) I'm to take the butt/thigh/abs class thats 30 mins... then either do an hour of "power step" or 45 mins on the eliptical. Since I cant work out Saturday we've decided that I need to try Body Pump on Sunday... so not my idea of fun. I dont know why but I'm scared of that class. But I'm going to try my hardest to get there and do my cardio & take Body Pump. Gotta face the fear sometime right? So annoyed.Right now the Scale sucks... and we're gonna fight til it wants to cooperate with me! February 20 50 jumps... i kid you not... 50! - Crystalday 2 of trying my hardest at being good. Did I stick to my plan? YUP! yay!
I ate on program... the only thing i missed was my yogurt and that would be because the new kind my mother bought was HORRIBLE! Really if anyone eats Dannon Light & Fit... how? how do you make it through? That was a horrible experience. hehe. The gym... oh lord the gym. It was um... painful. I did my 20 mins on the eliptical to warm up, then headed to spinning/cycling whatever you choose as the term. The normal wed instructor is still out, I really hope she's okay, and we had a different instructor. I've observed her before, just never taken a class with her. Can we talk about an hour straight of hills?! and at one point in time Jumps... I kid you not we did 50 jumps in a row... yeah she counted... then after a "rest" we did 20 more. WHAT IN THE... yeah so my legs hurt from training yesterday already, tomorrow is gonna be painful. I am humourous to watch going up & down the stairs right now, so not moving very far from the bed the rest of the night. I have no idea how I'm going to get through my training session tomorrow... so painful. Stayed tuned to see if I can walk friday. :) have a good one everyone! February 19 bad week, did i have a bad weigh in? - crystalWell now... bad week last week... how was weigh in? well.... I stayed exactly the same!!! yay!! i didnt gain I didnt lose. It was great. I'm very happy about that. So excited. The hair is helping i tell you. hehehe. I promise a pic eventually... however I've never had a hair cut where i needed to do anything besides blow dry & run... i dont use a round brush, i occassionally straighten when i feel like spending time. So Yesterday's first attempt at the hair didnt work out so great, to add to that it was pouring & WINDY... my umbrella turned inside out and i was drenched, I then looked like the shaggy dog the rest of the day... so not pretty. But hey I didn't gain! :) (and the hair turned out sooooo much better today, so maybe tomorrow it will only improve more)
I need to set some goals this week. I've already accomplished getting my bootay kicked by my trainer who has improved from the flu. Tonights session was painful, but my body was p o'd before this whole work out so I'm thinking thats why. I just wish my body would stop being a jerk and allow me to work out as hard as i need to and as hard as i used to. Back to the topic, goals for the week: 1. Cycling tomorrow night, do not go off program, try to do some extra cardio before getting into cycling. 2. Thursday: training session, i weigh in with her then so hopefully something will have happened. stay on program. 3. Friday: work out after work... cardio/core/some weights (depending on what is done thursday), try for an hour cardio. stick with jenny. 4. Saturday: be careful. I'm going into NYC to see Spring Awakening, it's supposed to be miserable day outside. Need to make sure to somehow stay on track and eat healthy while there & heading back. 5. Sunday: last chance workout... really hope my body is coopperating to do an hour-hour and half cardio/core/etc. oh the theme song is on.... what have you done today..... okay i'm completely lost in the show now. Hope everyone has a great week, and I promise to start checking other people's blogs again soon. I'm determined to not stress for a while, to relax, go to the gym, read my books & catch up with all you awesome fantastic people!! Have a good one!! :) February 18 Great Start To The Morning (Brittany)I set my alarm this morning for my Weight Watchers meeting. And I slept right through it. Great! Just great! So I didn't weigh-in this morning. I think I'm going to try going to a meeting later in the week. My scale upstairs (which is always off) is showing me at 297, but when I weighed in, I was in sweat pants and not my normal yoga pants. I think I'll go and put on my official weigh-in clothes and then get a number off the scale.
On another note, I'm not quite sure how I lost weight this week. I did great most of the week, except Saturday. I was starving Saturday night and had no points left whatsoever. I was craving pizza, so we ordered some. I ordered a Veggie Lovers Stuffed Crust **Smacks hand** pizza with no sauce and light cheese. Now, I knew that was a bad move. But apparently, someone is watching out for me. A few minutes after we placed the order online, our phone rings. Pizza Hut calling. They're out of stuffed crust. So instead of the stuffed crust that I wanted, I got thin crust. Much smarter move. But I did go over my points by about 40, but the scale is still showing me down. Miracles do happen apparently!
Goals for the week:
Today: Clean, clean clean and try to find more clothes and stuff to send to Goodwill
Tuesday: Weight Training
Wednesday: Treadmill
Thursday: Weight Training
Friday: Treadmill
Saturday: Treadmill
Sunday: Relax February 17 nothing like a new haircut to regroup - crystalAh yes.... so my week, didn't get much better. I recieved notification, wait i'm sorry a 2 sentenced "letter", stating I did not get the job I wanted. So add that ontop of the crappy days before & I was devestated. So how do I cure my ills? Well I had my haircut before hand, and when my mom told me I had the a letter from the place waiting I knew I didnt get the job, my stylist's response "it's because they didnt see this haircut!" which i might add is f'ng kick ass man! I'll have my mom take a pick later after i figure out how to style it on my own (this should be fun, i'm a blow dry and go girl not a let's do my hair this morning girl). So I enter the mall crushed I didnt get the job, but cheered up by an amazing guy at the Chanel counter (my sensitive skin only accepts Chanel, go figure... and i'm poor) and people literally stopping me asking about my hair. We were at the mall to search for shorts which I can finally wear when we head to florida... apparently shorts just aren't available at this time. I dont get it but okay... even online I can only find one pair i like under $100, stupid season thing. Well since the shorts were a bust, I got a pair of capris (almost a size down, but not quite). And I splurged on an AMAZING pair of sneakers... they're Ed Hardy.... and I have no extra money so now i really dont have any extra money.
Despite all the bad crap this week I've tried my hardest to stay ontrack. The things I ate off program were: the bagel & the eggplant sandwhich... and well pizza yesterday night. My boyfriend took me to the movies to see a movie i really wanted to see (side note: GO SEE IN BRUGES!, and according to my parents: DONT SEE THERE WILL BE BLOOD), and a pizza slice (okay i had another when i got home) to cheer up. Tomorrow night after weigh in I'm having a girlie night with my good friend and heading to a little Italian restaurant thats great. I have yet to have any alcohol but really I'd just want a glass of wine after I weigh in. While I'm worried about weigh in... I need to just give myself a huge break this week. It was a very hard week emotionally and I did pretty well at controlling my urges when it comes to eatting when sad, and I was still able to work out 5 days this week. (well i'm heading to the gym after I post this... the goal is to do an hour & a half of cardio if my body wants to be nice & let me, its been angry this week too) The gym may not have been exactly what I wanted this week, I can't be angry at myself for listening to my body, and I can't be angry that my poor trainer had the flu all week (i feel sooo bad for her, all i know is the times i've gotten the flu it has never ever been pretty).
So now what? Give myself a break tomorrow if i've gained a bit when weighing in since I know my mode is definitely tied to my losses and gains (strange how our bodies work) and just try to do better next week. Honestly there's nothing else to do. And here's a mini plan to stick with this:
Hopefully that all sticks. Hope everyone has a great day. And thanks again for all the support. February 15 been dreaming of chocolate - crystaloh boy.
i've had a bad couple of days emotionally... and what did i used to do in this situation? eat... eat... eat. or drink. now i'm trying not to. but i screwed up. i had a bagel for breakfast, it was the only fresh thing work had & i forgot my breakfast... then tonight i had eggplant sandwhich w/peppers. and now i feel sick. i ate too much and i didnt even want it all. what is wrong with me? damnit. its like i have some inner demon that just wont let me succeed. well i guess my screw ups could have been worse rght? i havent had any fresh made chocolate pastry that i want... not a pizza... not a huge thing of fries or greasy food. but still i should have been better. one of these days i'll be a good partner. February 12 It's a magic mirror - crystalI feel so much better today than I did yesterday. Pilates was great, I really feel like its something for me everytime I'm there. The new instructor is really nice and really tries to make sure that everyone is comfortable. I feel centered now, I havent felt that way for a while. It's cool to have a class at the gym I can take and know that I can do some of the "advanced" level things that she has been teaching... so fulfilling. I also looked in the mirror, and only in that mirror does this ever happen, I could see the weight that I've lost... I saw an athletic body, I didnt see a fat body. It was amazing... however in other mirrors and other times when working out I don't see this, I dont get it. I dont feel that way day-to-day. I hate jumping rope & jumping jacks with Kim (my trainer) because I can see my stomach move up & down... not attractive. Then on my own I just feel like everything is still too big and get frustrated that it wont just go away! But when I take Pilates and I look in that mirror I see it, I see the normal sized American woman (since I'm still a size 14 pant)... I see my arms and my legs... but outside of it I don't. The mirror & Pilates have special powers, I'm determined thats why. Anyone else have this problem?
While I'm only tuesday already my plans must be modified for the week. Not when it comes to eatting thankfully, but when it comes to the gym. My poor trainer was sick today so had to cancel, so I took the opportunity to take the Pilates class... while Saturday I forgot I have a hair appointment then going out that night so unable to get time in (my hair can take 2 plus hours then i'm heading out so yeah no time). I will defiintely make sure that I work my hardest tomorrow before cycling, during cycling and training on thursday. I also think I'm going to ask my trainer her suggestion on what to do Friday & Saturday for maximum results.
And because it's tuesday and I looked good in the Pilates mirror I'm pumped up... its Biggest Loser day!! yay! I've eatten on program exactly, I've drank all my water & my milk. I went to the gym... Its time to remotivate myself, and what better way to do that than by watching The Biggest Loser! hehe. Now lets just hope the snow doesnt ruin the satelitte or I may be back crying later.
 Have a good night everyone!  February 11 the scale almost got torn off the wall - crystalI am so excited for my partner! you have no idea how happy i am for brittany I can't even explain it. Really I do jumps for joy for her right now.
So how was my weigh in? I followed my program to a t, i worked out 5 days of the week... when i ate off i had small portions & veggies, only thing iffy was a damn small piece of chocolate. this should be a recipe for success correct? Right! You'd think at least a pound slipped off of me, if not reaching my goal of 170. HA! How'd it go? I LOST 0.4! 0.4! you f'er of a body... what the hell man!! Thats not fair! i worked out to the best of my ability (my shin and knee was giving me problems so I made sure to be nice to them) ate extremely healthy made sure I drank all my water... what the hell man! what the hell! I did not give into any damn cravings... ate the stupid stuff... NOOOOOOO. Only lost 0.4!! Even my Jenny Counselor was lost... she doesnt have any idea why... so we're gonna try me not eatting a banana everyday. WHAT THE HECK MAN!! Okay, okay it wasnt a gain... i didnt get over 173 which i have a problem with... but still 0.4!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME! So i was bad tonight and had a cheeseburger, yeah yeah yeah i had a cheeseburger. I promise that will be the only bad thing all week, I swear to you. Stupid mean scale, i wanted to rip it off the wall and jump on it til it broke into 172.4 million pieces! GRRR. And to the plan for the week: Tuesday: Training session Wednesday: Cycling class (pray that psycho instructor is back) Thursday: Training session... not sure where we are going to dinner yet for Valentines Day Friday: Gym... cardio and abs (we do weights in training session) Saturday: Cycling class, abs, some weights not a lot Sunday: Cardio hour and a half hopefully... at least an hour though. I also promise to update the blog more this week & see if that helps me more. OH! on a high point... I had to order a size 10 dress because it was either a 10 or a 16 and i'm a 12 dress... alright whatever. I figured it will be my new goal outfit... nope. IT FIT! Yay! so at least i can fit in a size 10. stupid 0.4. Goodbye...I Never Want To See You Again (Brittany)I am singing in my head as I type this. Because......I said good-bye to the 300s today! Good-bye forever. It was not nice to know you. And I will never know you again! I'm down to 298.2. I had a loss of 2.4, which I'm not exactly thrilled with. But at the same time, it's so emotional for me to be out of the 300s. I haven't been out of the 300s in many years! In fact, I'm sitting here at work as I type this, crying. I'm a little under 6 pounds away from hitting my second 10% goal on Weight Watchers. So, I'm aiming for two weeks from today. Hopefully. I'm down 63 pounds total, and my goal was to be down 100 pounds total by my anniversary on Weight Watchers at the end of July. And as long as things keep going up (or should I say...down?), I should get there by then or at least close to around there. **Crossing fingers** As my amazingly awesome leader said this morning, "You're down a third grader! Or someone about that size!" Haha! I need to go and find a kid that weighs 63 pounds and say hey! I lost you! :) So now..I shall leave you with the song that I am singing in my head (or at least part of the lyrics to said song): Goodbye by Save Ferris Goodbye I never want to see you again Goodbye I don't want to be your friend So long Now we've reached the end Time for me to turn that bend When time has run away And there's no need for me to stay And lose myself to you And be abused by you I don't need the pain From your mind games When you try them again I won't be there for them to work Anymore And those words couldn't be more true!  February 09 i'm alive - crystalWow i've sucked at updating this week. I'm sorry. I feel like blah all week long. Its rained all week long... its just been deary, and i think it's really getting to me. Feeling quite down... can't seem to get myself out of it. And because i've been feeling so down all i want to do is eat... eat.... eat... and nothing too healthy. While I write this i gotta say the whole week wasn't crap, I did get some good news which has gotten me some stress relief.... yet i cant sleep. I'm down, I want to eat, and I cant sleep. Not such a hot combo. Side note it just started snowing.... woo hoo yet another day/night in. ugh i need sun and warmth or i may lose it soon. this crap is just depressing.
On a happier note, I've stuck to my plan. The only thing that i've eatten off program was last night.. i had a veggie quesadilla, which really could have been worse, the place we go has great portions so it really wasnt too big. I've been at the gym every day (except tuesday due to the damn transformer blowing)... though wednesday it was a different cycling instructor... eh. then again today it was another different one. And today it hurt... not in a good way, but in a mental/emotional way. I know i'm screwed up emotionally right now & i'm trying to figure out why, I'm blaming the weather and stupid stuff... but it made me feel like an outsider (oh and to make me feel better while watching this i have on MTV's True Life: i'm the black sheep... damn i need some sun & a beach), right away i felt like the fat girl. she looked at me like "this has to be her first time", and its not.... then she came by to reiterate that we should be working at 80%... i was, just watching myself since my shin was bothering me wednesday night and thursday after my training session. Also I always use the same bike, normally the handle bars are normally what seems to be permanently stuck... well of course not today with instructor who already has eyed me as that person... so after every hill of standing i had to readjust and tighten the bars, annoying yes but will i get over it? of course. oh no she comes over and has to fix it.... making it another strike against me. i wanted to cry. thank god for it being in the dark w/black lighting. i was going to do more weights after class but i was so down i had to leave... as a kick in the ass who was teaching the next cycling class? oh yeah my favorite instructor (not psycho wed night instructor but another good one). son of a. go figure. i never feel like this at my gym... i've always felt like i belonged, like this was a different gym. today i just felt like... not too hot. at least i got some ab work done before she got there a bit late & started class late. the goal now is to just stay on program for the rest of the day today... and do 10 miles again tomorrow for my last chance workout. i think i need a hug. February 05 allergic to... electricity - crystalI did good today... I followed my program. And I felt good. I had a big interview today and i just pray it went well. I really really want this job so if i get a no back I may cry. Because the interview was so close to my mom's job I met her & our good friend for lunch where i had a nice salad with grilled chicken. Afterwards on the way back to the office we stopped at my favorite store Ann Taylor Loft. Where I picked up a bunch of things (fyi: savings pass time, spend 50 get a $25 pass back)... and with some urging tried on a size 12 pants. they fit! but not comfortably enough to buy... so after a few more pounds i can officially go buy a pair of 12s! sweetness. The last thing on the list was the gym.... yeah well... my gym was allergic to electricity. A transformer blew in the area.... oops. I think thats a damn good reason not to go to the gym. though i started laughing to myself imagining being on the eliptical or stairmill as the power blew.. hahahahaha. okay mental pictures are too entertaing right now. I made up for it with some ab work here at home, tomorrow i'll just bust my booty before spinning and definitely do 90 mins cardio.
Now its time for some chicken fajitas, broccoli (or green beans havent decided yet), chocolate cherry cheesecake (all foods by jenny craig) & the biggest loser. Hope everyone has a great night and had a chance to vote! Allergic to.....water? (Brittany)Wow! I feel like I haven't been on here in forever! Things have been insane at my work, and while I've been sticking to the program, I just haven't had too much time to be online.  I'm back though! I did not go to weigh-in on Monday. **Smacks hand** I have been having "issues", to say the least, for about a month. I've been so incredibly bloated that it isn't even funny. And yes, this is incredibly too much information, but oh well! I used to go to the restroom right after I ate. Food would go right through me. Now, I hardly go at all. I hate taking medications, so I've tried everything possible to try to get my system back to where it has been. Nothing has worked. I feel like I'm carrying around a toddler in my stomach. That's how bloated I feel. Well, maybe not quite a toddler. But you get my point! Anyway, my mom pointed out that when we (her, me, and my dad) first moved to the city they still live in, we had the same problem. And we were drinking the tap water. I stopped drinking bottled water a while ago because I hate spending the money. And I've had a filter on my tap that has needed to be changed.....for about a month. I keep forgetting to pick one up when I'm out. So my mom has been bringing me filtered water from her house. And bam! I'm back to normal. Who woulda thunk it? I guess I'm "allergic" (that probably isn't the best word for it, but you know what I mean!) to tap water. So now I'm back on track with everything. Work has slowed up. And now I'll get some time to go online and catch up on everyone's blogs and everything. And then I can work on getting our page updated! Sorry I suck Crystal! I'll get everything on here caught up soon! February 04 What have you done today... - CrystalExcuse me.... but this has to go in major bold & big letters: i lost 4.2 pounds this week!!!! I can't believe it.
 I have not pulled that type of number for like a year!!! So yeah i'm in giddy happy go lucky celebrating mood right now. I can't believe it. I just wanted like 2... i know i said a pound but inside i wanted two.... i never lose like this anymore!! Apparently 10 miles of cardio the day before weigh in is the key. lol. reminder to self, do that on sunday again. hehehe. Okay so now i'm really motivated. My goal with my Jenny counselor was to hit 170 by mid February... which would be next monday. That gives me 2.8 pounds to lose, which again is quite hard for me... but i'm going to try my hardest. Oh my god am I going to try. So hard.. but i can do it!! I'm officially going shopping tomorrow... well online tonight first. I only shop for a coupon or with one, and ann taylor loft is doing their savings pass again so i'm all about it. So yeah... i'm a bit hyper right now, and tomorrow is a big day for me. Let's hope that this good news carries over through tomorrow. YAY!!!!! And now my weekly plan:
YAY!! Hope everyone else has a good week! quickie update - crystalso i want everyone to know... I wrote this awesome blog yesterday but for some reason it would not even post. I was highly frustrated. And now I'm highly sore.
Last night I did keep to my plan... I went to the gym and did an hour and a half of cardio. 30 mins on intervals level one on the stepmill. 30 mins on bike on intervals and 30 mins on hill killamanijaro.... 10 miles later i wanted to pass out & "rid myself of toxins" as bob & brittany would say. My ass hurts so bad. I'm fine when I walk, but sitting good lord my butt is killing me!
I'm hoping for at least a 1 pound loss when i get to jenny in about 2 hrs... i'm really hoping for that. I haven't gone off track today or yesterday. I'm doing really good and I'm just hoping for a pound, anymore and i feel like i jinx myself.
I'll be back later w/updates. hope everyone is doing well! February 02 okay i have a happier face now - crystalThank you again for everyone's comments of support. It really.. really.. really made me feel okay. It was a blah mood type of day, still kind of is, but i'm feeling better. How?
I went to the gym and worked out really hard. I did the hour of cardio i put down, did some weights & did some core. I'm proud of myself... i haven't worked that hard since my pms started... it feels great to sweat like that again. I pray it pays off a bit for monday weigh in. I've also stuck to my program exactly... I haven't eatten off, I got my 2 bottles of water in, my milk, everything. I'm back on track and I refuse to go off.
I'm now watching Biggest Loser UK... if i could just figure out how many pounds are in one stone I'd be much less confused. lol.
Thanks again for the support... i'm determined to stay on track now... and stick to my goals that i set forth this morning.
Have a great night folks! *insert sad face here* - CrystalI'm frustrated... very very frustrated... and sad.
I feel like I'm failing so bad at this. I know, I know, I can't control pms & my period being pscyhotic, but still. I feel really crappy because I havent been able to work out for a week!! My hopes was that by yesterday I'd be able to work out again. Well I made myself go... my head was still pounding and intense cramps... my goall: 30 mins on a cardio machine. I made it 20 on the bike. It was horrible, my cramps got worse, my head pounded more & I was sure I was going to pass out.. i failed to mention the cold sweats that accompanied this. So I get off knowing pushing myself probably not good, and i bought a new balance ball (its PINK!!!) on thursday so i'd do that at night. HA! I was then in bed for the rest of the day in pain & head spinning (yes i took stuff)... well i finally got to watch Knocked Up (loved it)... but that balance ball was so not used. I also have this problem... when i dont feel good, i tend to just give in to "bad" food. so what did i have for dinner last night?  *headdesk*  Horrible. Why? ughh. So now what? You'd think i'd have more ambition right now... my mom keeps reminding me that i cant control my pms/period. I Cant control when it comes or what it makes me feel like. Just feeling kind of like the weight loss failure queen right now. All I want to do is break 170 and I havent been able to do that since November. I also cant control that i'll still have it when i weigh in on monday... So I need a new game plan... Here we go:
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