On a lighter side, though maybe not too light.  Like Brittany said, we tend to take things for granted.  I think at times I probably did take my health for granted too... and the fact that I'm losing weight.  It's hard, when people say "oh you're getting so skinny" or "you're doing great"... sometimes it bothers me, i'm not close to my goal weight (well now i'm 19.4 lbs away) and i gained 1.6 this week.  But at those point in time i need to always remind myself to stop & say "thank you" and not get annoyed.  I'm doing good, look where I came from, these people may or may not know the struggles or have to know the struggles.  I really need to learn to be better about that, and I think I was better today.

While working out with my trainer on tuesdays there's always another woman working out with another one of the trainers.  The woman (who's probably not much older than me) is f'ng gorgeous... PERFECT f'ng body .  Good lord i dont think there is any fat on her.  I mean amazing body and just yeah gorgeous.  That fact has always made me wonder why the hell she's with a trainer, but whatever i try not to judge... but really she's gorgeous.  After she was done working out her trainer came over and told me that she said I was looking "smokin".  I'm sorry did perfect body say that about me?  me??  wow... I took that as a big compliment.  Wow maybe I am changing.

Then again I'm getting compliments all the time from my boyfriend who is amazed at my progress.  And it feels good... I'm doing the right thing.  I havent been sick in a long time, my period still sucks big time, but it wasnt as bad as the past.  I'm doing better.  And I have to stop taking that for granted.

I'm with Brittany... time to stop taking things for granted... and also time to head to bed to watch Biggest Loser. 

Have a great night everyone. 


oh and.... GO SOX!