So i'm here... alive and kicking.  Have yet to hit 50 pounds though... BOOO!!!!  I'm working on it i swear... but why is it when you want something that badly it's even that much harder to hit?  Let's just say eatting properly has not been my strong point the past couple of weeks. 

... it all started when i went away for a wedding.  That saturday night i did okay with eatting, and looking back it could have been worse... but the sunday of the wedding not too hot.  Bagel sandwhiches from Dunkin Donuts not too healthy, but that was my breakfast, had a few munchkins after that, then went to the wedding of the century.  I kid you not, not even Biggest Loser contestants would have made it out alive.  The "cocktail hour"  was about 3 rooms big with every type of food imaginable on tables, but on top of that they were walking around with more apps.  While all this food is going around I had at least a glass of wine.  after the hour of insane food, we head to the actual reception... with food... food.. and more food.  But more than that... wine, wine, wine, wine, wine.  And becuase i was nervous (first time meeting my boy's friends) i drank, but lord if i know how much since they just kept on refilling and refilling when you werent looking.  So you'd think that be it for temptations right?  oh nooooooo.... we did not have a desert tray... there was a DESERT ROOM!!!  I kid you not, full with cotton candy machine, ice cream bars, belgin waffle maker, sundae bar, chocolate fountains, etc... yeah um HEAVEN!  and well insanity... but great.  So the next morning i headed back to DD for some breakfast (it was next to the hotel, and much cheaper than hotel food)... but breakfast was hangover breakfast so yet another breakfast sandwhich. Oy.

 

Food wise things didnt get much better last week... but I made my butt get to the gym at least 4 days.  And well the stress kinda piled on.  On top of my worring the effect of the wedding on my waistline, I bought my first car last week also.  I've never had money, so to write out that bank check down payment, it was exciting yet painful at the same time.  So there went any extra money I had, and now I'll have a car payment... After that and siging saying yeah its my car once it comes in (unless they f it up)... i get up the next morning computer is makin some funky noises, turn it off go to turn it on when it get home... poof computer wont turn on.  My hard drive said buh-bye.  what the!  go figure.  so i'm either gonna save & pay apple $300 to fix it... or do i take the other option, wait a bit (okay a long while) and save just to buy a new up to date computer.  I have yet to figure that out, but am going to start saving anyways... insert some eatting there to cover my nerves.  It was a pain!  really all stress one week... on top of the fact that my womanly problems still have yet to go away I dreaded weigh in yesterday.

 

However... It didnt go to bad... I went down 0.2... so I'm still at 168.8 so maybe by mid May I'll actually hit my 50 pound mark... I have 2.2 left til I hit it, but with my period coming up I probably need an extra week for it. 

 

One day at a time right?

 

oh but YAY FOR ALI WINNING!!  okay i'm done... bed time.